Okay, so this is just going to be a random post that I’m writing out of no where. Because no one goes or writes on livejournal anymore, it will be interesting to see who, if anyone replies.
Some things that annoy me:
-People that complain about every aspect of doing a task. Can’t you just understand that sometimes there are necessary evils in the world and that you have to do what you have to do to get the task done?
-You are not the only encountering the problems. You are not the first. You will not be the last. Bitching about it isn’t going to help.
-You have what you have on your plate. Whining about how it puts you at a disadvantage over others isn’t going to help you out.
-Everybody has their own struggles to deal with, whether you’re poor or rich, come from a broken home or not, everybody will look out for themselves and things will work themselves out.
-Don’t expend energy on convincing yourself that you have it so much harder. You only grow to hate others and yourself for it, and you can only bring yourself down from there.
Okay, so I’m going to tell you a big fuckin’ secret, which isn’t really a fuckin’ secret at all. I can’t stand people who can’t do things for themselves. Not to stereotype, but to note, that a big part of the reason why I hate some girly girls, why I just don’t even try to deal with the girls in my POSSE sometimes. You can be the princess of your world, but you will never be one in mine.
I’m a very do-it-yourself type of person. I have not come from a lot, and I’m proud to say that everything I’ve ever had, I’ve earned or had the luck of finding. I’m tired, so fucking tired, of people saying that they have no way out to bring themselves out of whatever sad, poor situation they’re in. There are resources and places to help you out if you take the time to look –and don’t say it’s a matter of age that keeps you from being where you want to be, who you want to be.
There is help for 40 year-old adults who still act like kids, have the mentality of kids, people who can’t make rent, but will buy everything else unnecessary in the market, people who still blame their parents, for their upbringing, for everything –and always will. They just can’t seem to bring themselves out of that. I just can’t respect that.
I hate when people say I have it easier just because I’m younger, when people compare my struggle to theirs and invalidate it. Truth is, I didn’t really have a choice from the beginning to fuck up, so maybe it was easier for me. I didn’t have mommy and daddy to pay for jack shit because I didn’t grow up with my parents. I’m not going to go in to where, how I grew up, but basically, my support system were my friends, my teachers, those who had faith in me, but even before all of that, I grew my own understanding that I had to look out for myself, because if I didn’t, no one else would. So now that I’ve admitted that I’ve had it easier, what are you fucking going to do about it? Sit and whine some more about it or do something for yourself?
Basic point is, no one can help you until you help yourself. I’ve been so worn down in the past couple years by surrounding myself with people who only bring themselves down. You offer an ear, and over time I’ve seen that that’s the only thing that you can really do. Whether you offer advice or not, people will still be stuck in their ways, until proven otherwise.
One of the most important things I’ve learned in the past year or two? –That you can’t control people, what they do, how they think, how they act towards you, even if it’s all very illogical. That was one of the hardest things, not understanding why people do the cruel senseless things that they do. In the end, I suppose they all have their reasons, and it makes sense to them, maybe not to me, but to them, then. Cheers to that, I say! The only thing you can do is choose to spend more or less time with them.
I’ve so ready for change, to carve out something else for myself, beyond all that negativity that I drew myself in to in the past. It was fun for a while. I learned a lot from other people, met people that I never would have met otherwise, but I’m done with that now. I’m not down with people bringing themselves down only because they don’t give themselves reasons or motivation to do otherwise. I owe myself that much at least!
Start now, so you can only have good feelings about 2008!